Monday, May 12, 2014

Of May and a Myriad of Other Things

Oh my's MAY.

Time flies when you're having fun.

Yesterday was El Dia de la Madre (or should that be LA Dia ...)  The Boy, The Girl and Hubster went to church with me, then prepared a lovely steak dinner, complete with fresh asparagus.

(NOTE:  There will be fresh asparagus in Heaven.  And it will be grilled with a little olive oil and sprinkled with salt.  And you won't have to share it with anyone.)

Church was especially moving for me yesterday.  Our associate pastor spoke about dreams, and how we deal with it when they're broken.  There was a particularly personal drama about children dealing with the care of an elderly parent.  That started the waterworks on my part, and there was no drying me up. After the drama, three of my friends shared about the major alterations of their lives, and I continued to cry.  And just when I thought I was done, the band started in and reaffirmed just how good God is...and I started all over again.


The people and the programs and the services all connect me to God in a mighty way.

I just wish I knew when I was going to be touched so deeply, so I could at least bring along a box of Kleenex.  As it was, I dug around in my purse and found a semi-used napkin to mop up my face.

Wow.  Just...WOW.

Hoping your day was as excellent as mine!

Friday, April 25, 2014


I am up at first light.  I’ve been dreaming of bathrooms, toilets open to the view of anyone who passes by.  My dreams become my alarm clock, waking me to insistent urges no matter how hard I try to remain in my warm, cozy bed.

I take care of the necessary and stumble, still half asleep, toward the oasis of my mornings; the coffee pot.  Fortified by the warmth of that first cup, I hold it with both hands.  The heat glows down into the joints of my fingers and loosens the stiffness I struggle with each day.  My eyes slowly clear and I become a more coherent version of me.

My husband is out on the porch swing enjoying his first cigarette of the day and the coffee he prepared before I got up.  This is his alone time, his time to think, to worry, to talk with the neighbor that comes over to join him on the swing.  They chat about this and that, enjoying their smokes and the morning.

He turns on the television before he goes outside, listening to the weather, the traffic, the latest shooting report.  It stays on for the rest of the day unless I turn it off.  I reach for the remote and mute the noise.  I need the quiet to gather my thoughts, to pray, to find the energy it will take to get through the time I must pass until I can lose myself in sleep once again.

He comes in through the back door and begins to tell me what has been on his mind today.  We talk through life during these mornings.  We reminisce about the children, the grandchildren and our lives together.  We talk through problems, finances, everything we need to do that day.

We connect.  And in that connection, our lives become not just the two of us, but one.  One mind, one strength, one purpose, one united front against all the problems we will face today.  Two hearts joined as one.

I rise from my chair and hand him the remote.  As I go upstairs to get ready for work I hear the weather report playing in the background.

It’s going to be another sunny day.

Thursday, April 10, 2014

Spring Has Finally Sprung!

It has been a long, cold winter.

Fortunately, it seems as though the long-awaited Spring is finally here!

Ladies and Gentlemen, let me present evidence!  The annual view from outside my office window:

Monday, February 10, 2014

Avoidance and Other Things

I have been in a state of avoidance lately.

I'm avoiding the blog, avoiding the writing, mostly because I have nothing to say. That's quite a feat for someone who has written for lo, these many years.

I'm avoiding the financial as well.  That isn't so surprising when you realize that I've managed to avoid the fiscal end of things for lo, these many years.

And I'm trying to avoid life altogether at the moment.  Mostly due to the weather (snow and frigid temps) and the RA.

The monster is making himself known in a very loud and clear way, leaving little time for anything other than listening to him and his childish outbursts.  They are attacking hands and knees and any other joints they can, and make it hard for me to think of anything else.  I am to begin Humira shots again as soon as the pharmacy gets them to me, but until then I live for my four pain pills a day.

Yoga has become a great source of relief in these days.  I find myself longing for a class when there isn't one, mainly because of the way I feel afterwards.  I came home from a class last week feeling like melted butter, and so far that seems to happen every time.  I need this right now!  DD even loaned me a yoga DVD so I could do a class on the off days.

Speaking of DD and ice and snow, she totaled her car last week.  She's fine, but the car is toast.  She'll have to find another before too long, because she's now driving her father's truck.  Gas mileage aside, it's an inconvenience.  Since the wreck wasn't her fault (she was part of a multi-car accident), the insurance isn't giving us any problems at all.

Kudos to State Farm Insurance!!!

And that's it for this neck of the woods.  Hopefully the monster will go back into hiding and life can go on.

Thursday, January 23, 2014

Psalm 103:1

English Standard Version (ESV)

Bless the Lord, O My Soul

Of David.

Bless the Lord, O my soul,
and all that is within me, bless his holy name!