I will be the first to admit that I feel too much.
When 9/11 happened, I remember sitting in a stupor as I watched the towers fall. Columbine, Oklahoma, the Unibomber, the snipers that killed random people, Bob Berdella, Sandy Hook, and many, many more tragedies brought me to tears.
Boston sits like a rock in my heart right now.
I don't know anyone who was involved in any of these events, or anyone who died at the hands of these murderers. That doesn't stop me from grieving for them, as I'm sure you are.
To think that things like this happen as a "normal" way of life nowadays hurts. It hurts every time I see the now commonplace mass murders on the screen. It hurts every time I see that another innocent life has been taken, another person maimed.
And I don't know what to do to make it better.
Those who don't want legislation to ban guns say it infringes on their rights. They say laws won't stop those who want guns from getting them. It will also keep innocent people from defending themselves in horrible situations.
Those who do want legislation to ban guns say the killing will keep happening with greater and greater frequency. They say the people who are able to defend themselves with guns can make more mistakes....shooting someone in a misunderstanding, keeping guns where children can get them, killing someone by accident.
What will make things better???
I don't know.
What I do know is that God, the Creator of the Universe, has me in His hands. He knows what has happened and what will happen. He loves me, He loves my family, and He'll take care of us no matter what.
And much as I may not want to believe it, the same God that loves me, loves ALL of the people who made those horrendous things happen.
HE LOVES THEM.
So even though I don't want to, and even though it's hard, and even though I may not think they deserve it, I will forgive them.
But it may take some time.