Exercising My Belief

I did it.

Not only today, but for the past two days.

I actually exercised.

Me. The One Who Will Not Move Unless Fire Is Overtaking The Building.
Me. The Seated One.
Me. The Lover of All Things Sedentary.

I got up off of my hiney and moved. Really. And y'all? I even STRETCHED before I did it. Oh yes, I did.

At this point you may be asking the same question that has been running through my mind. No, it isn't "Will she continue?" although that has been a concern of mine. No, the question I have to ask is "WHAT ALIEN BEING HAS TAKEN CONTROL OF MY MIND AND BODY???" After all, not only have I been EXERCISING (did I mention that already?), but I have been CLEANING THE HOUSE.

Now, I wouldn't put it past God to work miracles in the modern day, but I must admit I'm somewhat of a skeptic when it comes to them happening in my own life. I can believe He parted the Red Sea. I can believe He made manna fall to the ground to feed those who wandered in the desert for so long. I can believe Jesus walked on water and healed sick people and raised others from the dead.

But when it comes to me? Not so much.

I tend to find it more likely that I'm somewhat manic/depressive and that I'm going through a mild manic phase. That would explain it, right? I mean, why bring the God thing into it at all? It won't last, and for now I've got it covered. I don't need the God aspect of the whole thing.

Or do I?

I know how things usually end up when I take control of them. Let's just say it ain't pretty. And the funny thing is, every time I try to do things on my own power, I screw them up.

So why can't this be my own little miracle? Why can't I rely on God to help me with these things I've been praying to overcome for such a long time? Why do I have such a hard time believing it could happen? Why can't history be changed, beginning today?

God, it's Yours. I give it all to You, right here and right now. You are the only way I will ever maintain the good that is going on in my life. You are the source of all good. You are the Holy One, the Miracle Worker. Work a miracle in me, Lord! I believe You can and You will. Help my unbelief, I pray.

Mark 9:23-24
"What do you mean, `If I can'?" Jesus asked. "Anything is possible if a person believes." The father instantly cried out, "I do believe, but help me overcome my unbelief!" (NLT)